Love at first sight

24^th January 2015

Wow where do I start??? 

This afternoon was the day we all meet up, was so sweet Nicole and Cam gave me a lovely bunch of yellow roses.

All the nerves vanished very fast after meeting and we just sat and enjoyed each others company

It just felt so natural like we had all known each other for ages.

We spent the whole afternoon talking about everything and anything, lots of questions asked and answered from both sides, 

I had some of children with me this afternoon so Nicole and Cam got to meet and interact with them, was great to see how well they interacted with them, could already tell they would make amazing parents.

I left our first meet up with so much excitement and in fact I knew from today that I wanted to offer to help them bring their child into this big wide world, but did not want to mention this in case they thought I was crazy to offer so fast, but I trust my gut and my gut was telling me they are the ones I should do this new journey with,

Once in the car Darren and I spoke and both had same feelings that we all just clicked right away, and he was happy for us to offer when the time was right

When we got back home I messaged Nicole to say that we loved our meet up and was very keen to keep talking of which Nicole said her and Cam felt the same 

Never lose hope

11 January 2015
 

Well today was the start of our new amazing journey with Nicole and Cam.

 After being told of Nicole from another surrogate I contacted her via Facebook, and so glad I did as we hit it off right away, we both seemed very comfortable with each other.

I will forever be thankful to the surrogate who mentioned Nicole to me as Nicole was not on the fb page that I did my intro on so our paths may never of crossed with out her help 
 

The moment we started to talk I got butterflies in my tummy and so much excitement from what could be if everything turned out right.

We spent the next few days talking about things that lead us to this path of surrogacy and about everyday things, the conversation just flowed and I had such a great feeling, which I was so happy about as I was so worried with my last journey going so well connection wise I might not find that again but in this one case I was very happy to be proven wrong.

Nicole and I talked every day and covered many many topics we were on the same page about so many things.

We decided to arrange a time and place to meet up with both our husbands so we could all talk as a group and get to know each other more

We were both so nervous but so excited at the same time, I was lucky I have done this before so knew what to expect to some extent, poor Nicole would not of known what she was walking into.

First big step

Well this morning I thought I would do a new intro post on the Surrogacy page for IP’s to say that I am looking at helping another couple, 

I had so many mixed emotions about doing that post.

Even tho my last IM has given me nothing but love, support and her blessing to start a new journey I still felt some Guilt and sadness.

 I felt like I was betraying what I had with my last IM and that she may feel our journey meant nothing to me by me moving forward and looking for a new one, but that defiantly was not the case, our journey means the world to me and even tho we sadly did not get to the end result I have made such a strong amazing friend out of it who will forever be a part of my life  

Then there was excitement that this new journey might get all the way to the end result,

To nerves that no IP’s would be interested and it could be the end of a lifelong dream I have had,

To knowing that this new journey will have so many bitter sweet moments.

The best I could do was to trust my gut again and do what feels best in the moment, I read the post so many times before I pushed the enter button.

I got a few replies from some lovely couples some local and some interstate, ideally we would love local as we (Darren and I) really want the IPs to feel apart of this whole process and feel like they are the mum and dad because that is what they are, we want them at as many appointments as possible and at the birth of their long awaited baby, to see their face when they first see and hold their baby will be priceless and I have pictured this in my head a million times

I started chatting to a few IP’s that contacted me but even tho there was nothing “wrong” with any of the amazing couples none really clicked like I was hoping, I was hoping for Love at first site again and I just wasn’t feeling that.